I Just Don't Know

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It had been two weeks since last time
And that song we wrote was kinda whack
And you weren't the first thing on my mind
And then you text back
I gave myself $40 to spend that night
And then I spent another 10 on a glass of wine
And that don't include both the Uber rides
Or the time I could have spent putting songs online
And she's so into me I don't know why
Saying she can never tell what's going on in my mind
And I'm right there with her, 'cause neither do I
And I'm right there with her looking into my eyes
As she kisses my lips which I did not expect
'Cause I've always been the one who had to commence
And I'm asking myself if we really connect
And the next thing I know there's a hickey on my neck

And she asks if she's gonna see me again
And the only word that comes out my mouth is yeah
But all I'm really thinking is don't ask me that because

I just don't know
Girl I wish I could tell you
Where this will go
Yeah I wish I could tell you that you're all that I want
Because you kinda are but maybe you're not
Don't wanna phunk with your heart
So all I can really say is that I just don't know

She's 20 years old and thinks that she's missed
Her opportunity to make it in the industry of music
As I think silently what that says about me
When I want the same thing and I'm 23
As she asks what keeps me going everyday
I said you're way too young to be thinking this way
But as long as we're on the subject, okay
I've just got a lot to learn and I've got a lot to say
and I think that anything in life can drive you insane
It's just about finding that one thing you can stand
And you wanna know what's shaped me into who I am
I don't wanna say a broken heart and cancelled plans

Because I kinda wanna fuck but I'm kind of afraid
That when the sun comes up my mind will have changed
So maybe you can see why this is hard to explain
And why all I can say is

I just don't know
Girl I wish I could tell you
Where this will go
Yeah I wish I could tell you that you're all that I want
Because you kinda are but maybe you're not
Don't wanna phunk with your heart
So all I can really say is that I just don't know

Give me some time for me to warm up
You'll come to find I've been a bit torn up
Give me some time for me to warm up
'Cause I might have lied in the chorus

I just don't know
Girl I wish I could tell you
Where this will go
Yeah I wish I could tell you that you're all that I want
Because you kinda are but maybe you're not
Don't wanna phunk with your heart
So all I can really say is that I just don't know