I've been telling myself I'm going to bring back the black forever now. And by forever I mean probably 2 months...
I always romanticize finishing work early on a Sunday night and then lighting a candle and writing a blog before going to bed earlier than I normally do.
That's never the case and probably never will be the case so tonight I just said fuck it.
I don't really know anything about Scooter Braun, but my roommate Danny and I and been watching docs on our new TV and a long interview of his came up that I just watched. He was talking about visiting his brother at some point in his story and about how his brother would travel and write online when he found wifi.
I heard that and told myself that I'm never going to finish early on a Sunday so I might as well do it tonight,
It's currently 10:38pm. Not that late but I like my sleep and ideally I get up around 6 or even 5:50 sometimes.
I was up late last night trying to get some editing done. It's funny how much time I put into a 20 second TikTok sometimes... and I still have no idea what I'm doing even if my friends/new followers think I do.
I went to bed around 1 and my scumbag brain woke me up at like 7:30! One of the two days each week that I don't need to be up and I didn't even get to use it hahahaha
It's been a weird year so far but I think my years always start out kind of bad? January and February of last year sucked for me.
But I have a lot to be happy about.
Junie wanted her own office space at our old spot so she asked me and Danny to leave. We found a good place in a really really dope area, and when I say 'we' I actually mean Danny. I'm excited for when shit opens back up. We're in the thicc of Los Angeles.
I also got my wisdom teeth out last week and that was kind of crazy. I don't remember a lot of it, obviously. In my head when I got knocked out they were gonna put a mask over my face and ask me to count backwards from 10. I thought if I got a voice memo of that it could be cool to use in a song or something. I got the voice memo but they didn't do it like that, I think they injected me with something.
I wanted to try and make content out of being drowsy but nahhh. I was too fucked up. When I finally woke up I thought that I was fine. I swished some water into my mouth and a bunch of clots came out when I spat out the water. After that I walked back into the kitchen and rested my arms on the counter as Danny asked me if I wanted eggs, and I completely fainted. I woke up a few seconds later (I think?) and said, "What the fuck happened?"
Danny mashed up some bananas and peanut better for me to eat. I don't know why but I kept putting my hand over my face and then I started crying. It was such a weird headspace where I was mostly normal but still a little bit high and I was trying to crack jokes to lighten up the situation but there were also tears in my eyes.
I was in a decent amount of pain all week but I was also on a shit-ton of ibuprofen. My diet was pretty whack and I felt super light-headed after lunch at work on Tuesday. I probably should have gone home but I didn't ask anyone.
That's Exactly Why comes out on Friday and I still need to make the lyric video. It never ceases to amaze me how much of the work that goes into music has nothing to do with music. I'm really happy with how it came out though, and I have a couple more songs lined up for the next 2 months so I'm kind of set until April. Hopefully I will have 2-3 more songs done by then. I gotta start getting my music ass into gear if I want to put out another project this year.
My brain just comes up with so many ideas... I need to start writing songs again too, even though I should have been doing that all along. I should be meeting up with John next weekend to write something so hopefully that will go well. I'd like to set up some sort of blogging schedule but I don't really need another thing to suck at right this moment.
Idk man, I've got lots going on. And I'm still not making any money from anything other than my day job🙃 I'm gonna start selling merch. Not sure how it will do though. It's probably too early but I never accomplished anything by waiting until I was ready, did I?
I'm not sure who would read this, but thanks for tuning in if you have. I used to do all my online journaling on Tumblr but these days with my content-forward thinking I thought I should just post it in on the website to have something extra for people to check out if they ever come here. The word 'branding' has always annoyed me, but I'm trying to get evanknapp.com instead of evanknappmusic.com
I don't know when my thinking changed but at some point this last year I got kind of excited looking at myself as someone who doesn't only do music. I enjoy making the funny little videos. It's been weird kind of transitioning into someone who does sensitive music (or whatever) and also makes people laugh. I think eventually it will boil down into something that makes sense. Or at least I hope so. I just hope I find my thing on TikTok soon.
It's 11 and I already know I'm gonna feel like shit when I wake up in the morning so I think I'm gonna hit the hay.
Peace and until next time,